My wife is crazy

That is totally what my husband was thinking yesterday. I met him for lunch and I was discussing am email I had sent to a priest I know because I needed some info about Catholicism for Valkyrie. The following conversation ensued.

Billy - Why do you need to know about confession?

Me - Because my MC is Catholic and is feeling really guilty about something so I want to know how it works. I am also wondering if other people could guess how bad you were by how long you were doing the rosary thing.

Billy - What did she do?

Me - Accidentally killed someone.

Billy - If it was an accident why not go to the police?

Me - Because it happened during the commission of a crime.

Billy - What crime?

Me- Breaking and entering.

Billy - I thought she was a good guy??? (insert thoroughly confused look here)

Me - She is, he had a gun though so she tried to disarm him.

Billy - Yeah but she was on his property so he was within his rights to pull a gun on her.

Me - Well it's not like she broke into his house.

Billy - What? I thought it was a B&E. Where did she break into.

Me - A brothel.

Billy - God this is going to be weird isn't it (referring to my WIP)

Personally I don't get what is so weird about breaking into a brothel, accidentally killing someone and then feeling bad about it. Honestly I am not even 100% sure she is going to kill dude but whatever. Weird or not though when this beast is finished he will tell me how awesome it is because he knows how I love to have my ego stroked. Then I will send it to someone who won't lie in an effort to get a blow job.

Writing is a dangerous profession.

I'm getting to the good part in Valkyrie which means it is now in my brain 24/7. This is all well and good when I am doing mundane tasks like loading the dishwasher. More complex tasks like walking have now become an issue.

Yesterday I walked into the wall while coming out of the sauna at the gym. I was too busy thinking about how my MC was supposed to lure someone off. Today I went into the land of make believe while driving and almost rear ended a semi.

I seriously need to find an off switch in my brain.

strength.

Writing has been coming along even though my word counter is not moving. I will get it typed over I just like to procrastinate.

I broke down and started picking at the second story that is living in my head. It is much darker (apocalyptic) and I am finding on the days I can't concentrate on Valkyrie I can focus in on that one a bit easier.

We are still dealing with insurance and working on coming up with a price list of everything we lost. Just looking at the list overwhelms me most times but I am going to have to suck it up and get it done.

None of this however is what I came here to blog about though. I was complaining to a friend the other day and she made a comment about my strength that got me thinking. She said that she didn't know how I found the strength to go on when bad things keep happening to me. I have been hearing variations of this my whole life (what can I say I'm cursed) but I never really understood the sentiment behind it.

When things go wrong I do what I have to in order to survive. Bills still need to be paid, kids still need to be fed, husbands need to be yelled at for leaving dirty socks on the floor. As much as I would often like it to life does not come with a pause button that will allow me time to crumple on the floor in a blubbering heap.

I don't do anything that these people who comment on my strength wouldn't be able to do themselves in the same situation. This got me thinking that maybe it was not my strength that they were overestimating but rather that they were underestimating their own. Perhaps too many of us are approaching life with an 'I can't handle it' attitude. Many things in life are determined by our own attitudes so if we enter adversity expecting to be broken by it then it will become a self fulfilling prophesy.

I don't delude myself into thinking I will succeed at everything I try but rather knowing that no matter what I will come out whole on the other side. Well that or dead, I guess dying is always a possibility.

I may never make it as a writer but I will not let the possibility of failure cripple me. Like everything in life true failure for me would come from never trying.

must see video

If I could figure out how to embed video I totally would but I suck so instead I will post a link. Why you should never judge a book by its cover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

because it made me LOL

So I was procrastinating and found this

``Imagine if every Thursday your shoes exploded if you tied them the usual way. This happens to us all the time with computers, and nobody thinks of complaining.``

- Jeff Raskin

It made me laugh much harder than it should have so I had to share.

Exploding shoes. It just doesn`t get any better than that.

I need an exorcist.

A new story has taken root in my brain. It is messing with productivity although I am studiously ignoring it. I did take ten mins to write down the basic premise for future use but it NEEDS to go away. NOW

Tapping away at the keys

So I am finally transcribing again, and with that comes editing. It is a slow process and if I try to speed it up and my non existent typing skills start to show but is is progress all the same. I have a lot more written than last time I updated and have a much more definitive outline.

I wish I could type as fast as I think. If that was the case this thing would be done already. I know most of what is going on and have hammered out the dialogue in my head. Grammar is a different story but that is what editing is for. I hope to have my first draft done by the time we move in August so I really have to concentrate more on writing and less on the other stuff in life.

Right now the thing that is subtracting most from my progress is Battlestar Galactica. We are watching the series on DVD and my love for Apollo is interfering with my love for Valkyrie. Don't get me wrong I still have great love (and almost no loathing) for Valkyrie but Apollo is messing with my schedule.

For those not in the know here is Apollo.