I can taste victory

So Sariel sucked me back into it. The Forgotten is being eaten by the research monster at the moment and the urge to write was tickling my fingers.

I just passed 19000 so it is looking like 20000 by the end of the week may be possible. Not sure why that is such a big deal but I like nice round numbers

A B C D E F G Barney is my enemy.

For those of you not familiar with Barney he is an obnoxious 6 ft tall singing purple dinosaur who has been the bane of my existence for the last 17 years. He is also like crack for babies and toddlers and my 9 month old is thoroughly addicted.

This morning I woke with a segue worked out perfectly in my mind as well as how to feed some back story. It needed to be written right away for fear of losing it so I did what any responsible parent does. I plopped by baby in front of the one eyed babysitter and turned on Barney.

Seemed like a great plan until you try to write a scene very high in sexual tension and violence to a backdrop of If your happy and you know it and Family is special

Ugh someone shoot him and make stew already

So I'm a freak

Writing these days is hard. I was doing quite well for a while even if the end product ended up being shelved or needs a complete rewrite but at least I was writing. What happened ... AW.

Logically AW should help me with the writing process but instead it gives me an ulcer. OK maybe not an actual ulcer but definitely some unexplained stomach pain. I was thinking it was because I got too hung up on all the "rules" but the truth of the matter struck me in the face today.

I was reading a thread about those who claim to want to write but never do. Someone mentioned that fear of failure hold many back and I kinda laughed because the opposite is my problem. Failure is something I can live with. Commercial success with an imperfect product is not.

I was to follow the rules and produce perfection or die in oblivion trying. Problem is people can't agree on the rules other than adverbs are evil.